Monday, 8 August 2016

To B(12) or not to B(12)

And so it happens that I have Vitamin B12 deficiency, which is common with vegetarians. If there was prize for lowest count, I would stand first, so much is the deficiency. . My google studies say that B12 is abundantly found in meat and hardly in vegan food. 

After studying blood test report, doctor suggested medicines either in form of tablets or injections.  Any person with common sense will choose tablets over injections. But I guess I had common sense deficiency too.. and asked for injections. The fact that tablets was a 2 months course and injections just 5 rounds, supports my “wise” decision. If you know me close, you know how much I hate taking any sort of medicine.

Happy with my smartness, I popped up in front on nurse with the injections. I had all calculations in mind as how in next ten days I would be overflowing with damn B12 and I would be bouncing back on my feet. The happy bubble burst when the nurse asked me to lie down on the bed, flat on my stomach…the thunder hit me with a realization that the injection was not on the arm but, well, you know where. I stood (laid down) at a point where there was no looking back, literally! But the person to have a good look at my back was the nurse and I can’t describe how shy and embarrassed I was. The agony increased imagining the same scene for next 4 rounds on alternate days!!! And if it was different nurse every day, all the nurses in that hospital would know me by my left or right gluteus by end of the course! Thus, what hurt me more than the injection was my mindless decision..

In all that guilt and shame and pain I reached home teary eyed and isolated myself on the couch, in a “Leave me Alone” status. I wanted some time to come in terms with my foolishness and prepare myself for the next rounds. But the more I thought, the more I hated my stupidity. Mind you laugh, my mighty reader, you never know when you get your dose!

But the end to this misery was magical. Seeing me in sad-angry-helpless mode, Raghav brought me an ice-cream after dinner, that too my favorite Choco nut. There is nothing that a chocolate ice cream cannot treat. Its dark, rich creamy flavor freezes every tension. And with the last drop of such soul-healer, I wiped away the tragedy and went to sleep happily.

Did I hear calories? Count the blessings yaar :) 


Sunday, 22 May 2016

Why the change

I had to.

Unlike a rhythmic flowing river like before, my mind is a tornado now. Reasons are many & the window to out pour my feelings are very few. I don't expect my dear ones to understand my madness,because, as I said, it's madness. I feel writing down is the only way to calm the hurricane which is disturbing my mind.

I know what I want from life, and so far walking towards my aim seemed feasible. But now there are few speed breakers, few humps and quite a long muddy road, the end of which I don't know is how far. But if not started the walk now, I won't reach my goal. Hence writing down my journey hoping to make mind calm and vision clear.

I don't expect anyone to understand my posts, these are scribbles, not movie script. 

Wishing myself good luck.

Ashwini.